Sunday, November 24, 2013
I've had some chocolate here and there, some chips from time to time. Of course its all around at work, which makes it hard to say no to. I don't necessarily dump or throw up from it, but i almost get sick like when i eat it. I just feel really crummy, which caused me to miss my bootcamp on tuesday. I did however get on my treadmill and ran/jogged a whole mile straight. A WHOLE mile!! Sure doesn't sound like much but it was for me, and i couldn't of been prouder of myself! Clearly all of the running at bootcamp is helping. Helping what? I don't know, but its helping.
By Thursday i just felt depressed and sad, down on myself about some of my choices. I really felt the need for support, and luckily U of M was having a support meeting that night. In my heart i just knew i needed to go. We did yoga for the first hour. I have to say, i might be thinner than i was but some of that was still hard, i can't imagine how all of the pre ops felt. They must really have been struggling. Yet i had to be thankful for how far i have come that i could do most of it, and at least i wasn't out of breath doing it. That was a great feeling. There were about 6 of us that were post op, and it was almost like a question/answer session for us. As my friend Nicole said , it was like we were on a panel since we were all sitting together at the front of the room. It was definitely a moral boost to help them and support them, i love doing that!
I may have missed 2 days of bootcamp and could of gotten discouraged and just given up but i didn't allow myself. I made myself get up Saturday morning and go to bootcamp. I'm so glad i did. It was actually fun! We did these things called slingshots. We ran in a single file line of about 4-6 people. The person in the back and to sprint to the front and then slow down to set the pace, then the next person in back would run to the front and so on and so forth. Luckily we were put into group with people of similar speeds. We would run 4 laps, then head back to "home" and do our ab exercises, water up and then head out and do it all over again. Did that for 90 min. It sounds monotonous but i actually enjoyed the team work and everyone running together.
At least i ended off my week on a good note. I even bought some cute skinny pants from old navy to wear with my cute brown boots! I love them! So even though i may be a little lost and out of it, i know I am surrounded by support and a cute outfit to boot! Have a great week and i'll talk to you all next weekend!
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
So when I went grocery shopping this weekend I ended up at Walmart and as always, I wander around. In the deli section I found flatout bread. They had some new choices like an artisan pizza crust. I've tried their other flatouts for pizza and wasn't impressed but this looked different and was a new flavor so I gave it a go!
Flatout bread is 140 calories and 7 grams of protein. 26 carbs but nothing to feel too guilty about being a yr and a half out.
Pizza sauce is 80 calories for 1/2cup. I used just over 1/4 cup so only 40 calories and 1 gram of protein.
Cheese is a pizza blend, sure I should probably use the 2% stuff but I used a serving so I was good. 1/4 cup for 100 calories and 7 grams of protein.
I just followed the instructions on the back of the package. It told me to cook the bread in the oven for 4-5 min first. Then I put the sauce and cheese on and baked it for another 6 min. It was very good and crispy!
So 280 calories for 15 grams of protein. Not bad for a whole pizza that is filling!
Monday, November 18, 2013
So I made a turkey (fake) sandwich tonight. I found these fold it sandwich things by flat out for only 100 calories and 6 grams of protein! I added some mustard, lettuce, cheese and of course the fake turkey slices. I layered it. First I put mustard on the top and bottom part on the bread. Then I layed down a slice of cheese on each side. I then put some more mustard on and then covered it with a slice of turkey. Then I put on some lettuce, completing it with one last slice of cheese for right in the middle.
Cheese is 120 calories and 7 grams of protein for 3 slices
Soy turkey is 100 calories for 4 slices I only used 2 so 50 calories and 7 grams of protein.
Bread is 100 calories and 6 grams of protein.
Nutrition for the mustard and lettuce is not worth mentioning.
All together we have a 270 calorie sandwich with 20 grams of protein! And very filling!
Sunday, November 17, 2013
So about 6 weeks ago i decided that i needed to get back on track, truly on track, and did a liquid diet. I have struggled with getting back on track for the past year almost and needed to do this. Its just sucking it up and doing it. I had seen everyone on my Michigan Sleevers group on Facebook was doing the 5 day pouch test which i think motivated me to do this. I can't do the 5 day pouch test because it involves lots of meat and well, i don't eat meat. haha. So i decided to just go back to all liquids. For 4 days i did 3 protein shakes and a quest bar. I ended up dropping about 6 lbs in the 4 days. It was very rewarding. The struggle was similar to when i did my 2 week pre op diet. I got a headache the first couple days, which sucked. Clearly the carbs and creeped back into my diet and i had to detox from them. I loved the support i got from my facebook group. I still am in awe of how close knit the bariatric community is. I wish i had this kind of support on all the other diets i was on. I wish there was a way to give others without bariatric surgery the support they need to lose weight, so they don't have to resort to surgery. I don't regret a second of it, but just in hindsight wonder if i had this support before would i have succeeded?
3 weeks ago a friend coaxed me into trying out a boot camp class. Its 3 days a week for 2 hrs a session. Crazy right? YUP! She has been trying to get me to do this for a while now, and for some crazy reason i went through with it. haha! We just completed week 3 and have 3 more weeks to go. It is not easy! it is by far the hardest and most mentally challenging thing i have ever done. Every muscle in my body tells me to give up because its never done this before, never been pushed this hard and is used to just giving up. I am so proud of myself for not, but it still sucks! I hate to love it! lol. Everyone in the class is so supportive and amazing! I think they are the reason i go back. I told one of the ladies in class yesterday that the soreness has yet to go away, yet you get used to it and it becomes a part of you. It becomes your new norm. She said shes been sore for 10 months. But at least i know my body is being worked and will look amazing because of it. I know i'll have lose skin from all the weight i have to lose but this will help tone up where i can and push me to new goals and places i never thought i could go! I hope once i complete this session i can do another session in January, keep the soreness going! haha!
Thursday, August 8, 2013
So what I need to do, and want to do so badly is get back to what is good, what is nourishing to my body. What makes me feel good for long term, not a short term high. I want to be true to my new pouch, because i want it to be good to me for years to come. This is not a short term fix, its a long term goal and life. I want to be the best i can be. I don't have control over many things, but i like to think God has at least given me control over what the heck i put in my mouth to nourish my body!
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
I don't want to give up, i just want to be done. i am tired of always having weight loss on my mind. But of course the sooner i buckle down and get on with the diet and exercise the quicker i'll get there, right? Did you know it takes more energy to be successful than it does to just sit down and let life pass you by. I don't want life to pass me by. I want to live it and be apart of it. Get out there and contribute to it. Just gotta keep taking baby steps forward....
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
I have also been more open to trying new foods. I've enjoyed trying new things. I'm very happy that i have managed to stay away from the majority of carbs that got me where i was. Like the pasta's and breads. I don't keep them in the house. Not that i haven't had pizza here and there or a few pieces of pasta. Yes i said a few, the times i've had it, i fill my plate up with other things and a few things of pasta, by the time i get to it i'm almost full so a few fill me up the rest of the way. That shit swells! Let me tell you, it sits heavy in the new pouch, so i tend to stay away from it for that reason as well.
I have found a way to eat salad and actually enjoy it. I buy fruit and actually eat it! I have been able to drink protein shakes again, after months of aversion to it. Granted sweets have tried to wiggle their way back into my life on many occasions, i am trying to limit myself on them and enjoy them in small portions.
I exercise probably more than i ever used to. Still not as much as i would like, but it comes and goes in spurts. I am trying different things there too. I have found i still enjoy running. I love Zumba, and long walks with my puppy dogs!
Last Monday April 22nd i had Thyroid surgery. A left thyroid lobectomy. I feel great, no cancer and the recovery on this was NOTHING compared to bariatric surgery! haha! I took a week off and got to spend it with my momma. She came up from Florida to take care of me. It was so nice to have her here. :)
I had my one year post op appt on friday the 26th. That went well. The Dr and i came up with goals to set. My number 1 goal is getting to my goal weight of 130lbs by my birthday in Dec. So right now i'm working on decreasing my calories and being happy with that. Then i'll start in on the exercise again. I had my picture taken and was sent my before and after pics. Holy crap! I can't believe how fat i looked. haha. I knew i was big, but i never realized i was that big! Why didn't anyone tell me?? I was also told at my appt by my Dr that not only do i have a great support system(obviously) but that other people consider me their support and inspiration. For that i want to say thank you! I try my hardest to inspire other and be there for them. Its just so humbling to know that others see me as supportive!
So thank you to all who read! I love writing this and will continue to do so. Woo hoo for a year!