constantly new

I've been fairly busy the past couple weeks. I have been trying to stick to my "diet"/life style change. It certainly isn't easy. I constatly struggle with evening eating. I get home, don't do anything, watch tv, so i eat. Am i hungry? no. Am i eating anything healthy? nope. Granted its not unhealthy, but still there are better choices to be made, and they are in the house! On Feb 4th i decided that maybe exercising in the morning would be a good idea. Get up about 45 min earlier than normal, work out for 30 min and then i'd have more energy. Sounded good. I did have more energy. This morning, after 2 weeks i decided, nah, i'd rather sleep. haha! So onto the next great idea! I guess its a good thing that i'm trying new things and not giving up completely. So now i have decided that my dogs need exercise at least a couple times a day. They are pent up in the house all day, the least i can do is take them out for a 10 min walk a couple times a day. So morning and night. They need it just as much as I do, if not more. I at least get out and go to work and run errands. They aren't stuck in a cage all day but they are in the house all day. That would drive me crazy! So i bundle up and head out. Rain or shine, snow or ice!
   I suppose i'll have to go back to walking/running on the treadmill at night. I signed up for Active U at work so i have to get those mintues logged! I want that darn tshirt at the end of the 12 weeks! haha! I found these 7 exercises to help with toning. 7 isn't bad right? I figure 15 min at the most, it won't kill me. So i gotta find a place at home to do that, because a lot of it is using the wall, so i need a space for that. I can only imagine what the dogs will do. Diego will be all up in my business like "whatcha doin, can i help, here let me give you kisses" um no!
  I finally bought some jars and those little pebble rocks that you put in water. Well i've seen on pinterest and other people use them as weight loss markers. One jar for how much you have to lose and the other jar to put the ones you've lost into. So i have 55 little stones in one jar and none in the other right now. The jars are huge so the 55 stones looked like such a small amount. I had to count it twice because i just wasn't convinced that there were 55 stones in there! That is sitting on my ledge outside my bedroom, on my way to the bathroom. So i see it every morning and night. A gentle reminder that if i want to beable to switch the stones from one jar to the next, from "pounds to shed" to "pounds lost" that i got to get at it and get moving! Stick to the foods that are good for me, that give me energy, not weight me down. Protein really does make a difference and keeping busy gets my mind off food. I just have to do it. Talk is cheap, so by no means does me writing this down mean that when i get home at night do i have a new found sense of motivation to do everything i've ever strived to do.
   Here are some goals. I hope to exercise daily, by walking the dogs, getting on my treadmill, or going to zumba and also doing those 7 exercises i mentioned. I will seek out and try new recipes to keep me interested and busy at night and on the weekends. I will do better at doing things around the house, cleaning up, putting away laundry, those kinda things that my lazy butt hates to do! haha!
    Have a great rest of February to whoever reads this. Please leave a comment, follow me, i love to know who reads, it encourages me! Thank you!
 

frustrated

I get so mad at myself for ruining my days with bad eating habits. I start out so well, then ruin it with a few too many carbs and chocolate. Sure it sounds good at the time, but its probably hindering my ultimate goal. I just hate that i do it! I don't want to, but i just feel like i have a craving for it. Sure i can exercise, but thats probably just burning off the bad calories i ate. So really i'm just coming out even and staying the same. Its just so frustrating. Why do i self sabotage myself. I don't even feel like i'm doing it on purpose. I know not every day can be perfect or right on the money, but i just wish i could get a good momentum going.

I know how to get my protein, and maybe i'm just lacking on getting my water in. I just hate regrouping every day. Saying each day i'll get it right and fail each time. I've never wanted this so much and i feel like i have all the right tools and the motivation. I hope by writing it down it will motivate me. I'm accountable to you.

Please leave a comment of encouragement or ideas on how you stay on track and keep yourself honest. I really would love to hear!