How do you tell yourself it will be worth it when you've never had it before? For a brief second in high school i was close to my current goal weight but i don't remember it enough to grasp on to that memory and know it will be worth it. I wonder, do i allow myself to have what i want with food because i don't allow myself to do or have other things? Is it worth the immediate satisfaction when i feel bad about it later and even worse when i don't lose weight? I have all the right things, and of course the knowledge. I just can't stand myself for not sticking with it on a daily basis. How hard is that? To enjoy the healthy food and the energy it gives me.
I don't want to give up, i just want to be done. i am tired of always having weight loss on my mind. But of course the sooner i buckle down and get on with the diet and exercise the quicker i'll get there, right? Did you know it takes more energy to be successful than it does to just sit down and let life pass you by. I don't want life to pass me by. I want to live it and be apart of it. Get out there and contribute to it. Just gotta keep taking baby steps forward....
